Flying Crystals

Dream: I am in a market in Greece and have been shopping at a vendor's stand that sells rocks and minerals. After I move away I decide that I want more items from the stand, but rather than go back to it I lift my hands and will crytals to fly to me. My hands are covered with tiny crystals. Then I hear a voice that says I need kunzite and I lift my hands again to attract it.

Prisoner of War

Dream: I am in a jeep and driving alongside a train. In the train are detainees heavily guarded by armed soldiers. I know that it is just a matter of time before I am taken prisoner because I am visible due to a light inside the jeep that I cannot turn off. A soldier--German?--pulls me out of the vehicle and I am held hostage. Fast forward through multiple sexual assaults that I am aware will happen but I do not experience in the dream. I am at a celebration of my return from captivity and ask someone how long was I away? They say 2 years and I am so excited to have dissociated all the way through my captivity and to have no memory of it.

Ted Patrick “father” of deprogramming and thrice-convicted felon, typifies the former Cult Awareness Network“deprogrammer” – prone to violence, scornful of the rights and beliefs of others, and willing to do anything for a price. Patrick had been revered by the old Cult Awareness Network (CAN) its predecessor the Citizens Freedom Foundation, appearing as an honored guest and featured speaker at their conventions. His methods have been emulated by numerous deprogrammers, including Steven Hassan, Rick Ross, Hana Whitfield and many others. Patrick worked to make kidnapping and assault appear socially acceptable. As long as the crime was directed against individuals whose beliefs could be made to seem odd or unusual to the rest of society, any common thug could earn substantial sums simply by billing himself a “deprogrammer.” Patrick’s past reveals that he comes from a background which made him no stranger to crime. Patrick’s father opted for the lucrative profession of pickup man for local mobsters running the numbers racket. Patrick began earning his living as a professional kidnapper and hired thug, targeting members of various religions for violent “deprogrammings.” Patrick has admitted that deprogramming: “may be said to involve kidnapping at the very least, quite often assault and battery, almost invariably conspiracy to commit a crime and illegal restraint.” Patrick has asserted that religions recruit members by hypnotizing them on the spot with “beams” emanating from the knees and elbows and other parts of the body. This to Patrick classified a potential victim as a “mindless robot” and fair game for violent tactics. When once reminded that such tactics violate constitutional protections of the First Amendment, Patrick retorted by describing freedom of religion as: “one of the biggest rackets the world has ever known.” Patrick’s career has earned him a string of criminal indictments stretching from San Diego to New York. The charges range from kidnapping to violent abduction and sexual assault, including rape. Brute force is the hallmark of Patrick’s kidnappings. In a book defending his violent techniques, Patrick described the kidnapping of a Christian who resisted abduction by bracing himself against Patrick’s getaway car. Patrick forced the man into the car by squeezing his genitals until he let out a howl and doubled up in pain. “Then I hit,” Patrick wrote, “shoving him head first into the back seat of the car and piling in on top of him.” He described another abduction: “Joe and Goose [two of Patrick's henchmen] both had a hold of Ronnie … so I started on the other guys, you know, Maceing them, hitting, whatever. The Mace didn’t really work. I mean it worked, but they kept fighting. I’d spray somebody and then they were still kicking and I had to just kick them back.” Court papers filed in Massachusetts show that Patrick assaulted a man with a straight-edged razor during an abduction while, by Patrick’s own accounts, other abductions have utilized kicks, punches and other forms of violence. In Ohio, Patrick and several others were indicted after abducting a 20-year-old woman and taking her to Alabama, where she was repeatedly raped over the course of the seven-day “deprogramming.” Patrick announced afterward that he was giving up deprogramming. At the time of the Ohio abduction, Patrick was on probation for abducting a Tucson waitress; his probation was revoked after it was learned he had accepted several thousand dollars for the “deprogramming” of the Ohio woman, and he served a year in jail. One of Patrick’s attacks, an unsuccessful deprogramming attempt on a Catholic nun in Canada, resulted in an official government prohibition against Patrick entering Canada. Ignoring this, Patrick slipped back and forth across the border numerous times to continue his career in Canada as a kidnapper-for-hire, eventually assaulting more than 50 people in that country. Patrick, who received up to $15,000 plus $250 per day expenses for a single deprogramming, used violence not only to change individuals’ religious beliefs but their political persuasions and even their sexual orientation. In one case, Patrick resorted to rape in an attempted deprogramming of a woman who was a lesbian. Government prosecutors, wise to Patrick’s lifestyle of violence and force, have jailed him repeatedly on numerous charges, with three felony convictions. Yet, in extremist circles, Patrick and his methods are still considered worth emulating. Ida Camburn has been a supporter of Patrick’s and recommended the violent use of deprogramming. Keith Henson, a convicted hate criminal, advocates deprogramming and made this statement on the Internet in May 2001: “Deprogramming is currently out of style, but it or something much like it is badly needed.” Apart from his deprogramming activities, Patrick’s criminal record includes charges of cocaine use and parole violations. the above is from Religious Freedom Watch http://www.religiousfreedomwatch.org/religious-experts/false-experts/ted-patrick/ retrieved on 9/23/12

Obit

OBITUARY: CARLOS CASTANEDA

The following obituary by J.R. MOEHRINGER, Los Angeles Times Staff Writer, is dated June 19, 1998 A Hushed Death for Mystic Author Carlos Castaneda — Carlos Castaneda, the self-proclaimed "sorcerer" and best-selling author whose tales of drug-induced mental adventures with a Yaqui Indian shaman named Don Juan Matus once fascinated the world, apparently died two months ago in the same way that he lived: quietly, secretly, mysteriously. He was believed to be 72. Castaneda died April 27 at his home in Westwood, according to entertainment lawyer Deborah Drooz, a friend of Castaneda and the executor of his estate. The cause of death was liver cancer. Though he had millions of followers around the world, and though his 10 books continue to sell in 17 different languages, and though he once appeared on the cover of Time magazine as a leader of America's spiritual renaissance, he died without public notice, without the briefest mention in a newspaper or on TV. As befitting his mystical image, he seemingly vanished into thin air.(see) "He didn't like attention," Drooz said. "He always made sure people did not take his picture or record his voice. He didn't like the spotlight. Knowing that, I didn't take it upon myself to issue a press release." No funeral was held; no public service of any kind took place. The author was cremated at once and his ashes were spirited away to Mexico, according to the Culver City mortuary that handled his remains. He leaves behind a will, due to be probated in Los Angeles next month, and a death certificate fraught with dubious information. The few people who may benefit from his rich copyrights were told of the death, Drooz said, but none chose to alert the media. The doctor who attended him in his final days, Angelica Duenas, would not discuss her secretive patient. Even those who counted Castaneda a good friend were unaware of his death and wouldn't comment when told, choosing to honor his disdain for publicity, no matter what realm of reality he now inhabits. "I've made it a lifetime practice never to discuss Carlos Castaneda with anyone in the newspaper business," said author Michael Korda, who was once Castaneda's editor at Simon & Schuster Inc. Castaneda's literary agent in Los Angeles, Tracy Kramer, would not return phone calls about the Thomas Pynchon-esque author's death but issued this statement: "In the tradition of the shamans of his lineage, Carlos Castaneda left this world in full awareness." Carlos Cesar Arana Castaneda immigrated to the U.S. in 1951. He was born Christmas Day 1925 in Sao Paolo, Brazil, or Cajamarca, Peru, depending on which version of his autobiographical accounts can be believed. He was an inveterate and unrepentant liar about the statistical details of his life, from his birthplace to his birth date, and even his given name remains in some doubt. "Much of the Castaneda mystique is based on the fact that even his closest friends aren't sure who he is," wrote his ex-wife, Margaret Runyan Castaneda, in a 1997 memoir that Castaneda tried to keep from being published. Whoever he was, whatever his background, Castaneda galvanized the world 30 years ago. As an anthropology graduate student at UCLA, he wrote his master's thesis about a remarkable journey he made to the Arizona-Mexico desert. Hoping to study the effects of certain medicinal plants, Castaneda said he stopped in an Arizona border town and there, in a Greyhound Bus Depot Meeting, met an old Yaqui Indian from Sonora, Mexico, named Juan Matus, a brujo, or sorcerer, or shaman, who used powerful hallucinogens to initiate the student into an occult world with origins dating back more than 2,000 years. Under Don Juan's strenuous tutelage, which lasted several years, Castaneda experimented with Peyote, Jimson Weed (Datura) and dried mushrooms, undergoing moments of supreme ecstasy and stark panic, all in an effort to achieve varying "states of non-ordinary reality." Wandering through the desert, with Don Juan as his psychological and pharmacological guide, Castaneda said he Learned to fly, saw giant insects, grew a beak, became a crow and ultimately reached a plateau of higher consciousness, a hard-won wisdom that made him a "man of knowledge" like Don Juan. The thesis, published in 1968 by the University of California Press, became an international bestseller, striking just the right note at the peak of the psychedelic 1960s. A strange alchemy of anthropology, allegory, parapsychology, ethnography, Buddhism and perhaps great fiction, "Teachings of Don Juan : A Yaqui Way of Knowledge" made Don Juan a household name and Castaneda a cultural icon. Many still consider him the godfather of America's New Age movement. In one of the few profiles with which Castaneda cooperated, Time magazine wrote: "To tens of thousands of readers, young and old, the first meeting of Castaneda with Juan Matus . . . is a better-known literary event than the encounter of Dante and Beatrice beside the Arno." After his stunning debut, Castaneda followed with a string of bestsellers, including "A Separate Reality" and "Journey to Ixtlan." Soon, readers were flocking to Mexico, hoping to become apprentices at Don Juan's feet. But the old Indian could not be found, which set off widespread speculation that Castaneda was the author of an elaborate, if ingenious, hoax. "Is it possible that these books are nonfiction?" author Joyce Carol Oates asked in 1972. "I realize that everyone accepts them as anthropological studies, but they seem to me remarkable works of art, on the Hesse-like theme of a young man's initiation into 'another way' of reality. They are beautifully constructed. The dialogue is faultless. The character of Don Juan is unforgettable. There is a novelistic momentum." Such concerns have all but discredited Castaneda in academia. "At the moment, [his books] have no presence in anthropology," said Clifford Geertz, an influential anthropologist. But Castaneda's penchant for lying and the disputed existence of Don Juan never dampened the enthusiasm of his admirers. "It isn't necessary to believe to get swept up in Castaneda's otherworldly narrative," wrote Joshua Gilder in the Saturday Review. "Like myth, it works a strange and beautiful magic beyond the realm of belief. . . . Sometimes, admittedly, one gets the impression of a con artist simply glorifying in the game. Even so, it is a con touched by genius." Drooz agreed, saying it was an honor to represent a man with Castaneda's high moral purpose and impish charm. "I'm a very cynical, skeptical, atheistic lawyer, and I was deeply, deeply touched by Castaneda," she said. To the end, Castaneda stubbornly insisted that the events he described in his books were not only real but meticulously documented. "I invented nothing," he told 400 people attending a1995 seminar that he conducted in Anaheim. "I'm not insane, you know. Well, maybe a little insane." Even his Death Certificate, apparently, is not free of misinformation. His occupation is listed as teacher, his employer the Beverly Hills School District. But school district records don't show Castaneda teaching there. Also, though he was said to have no family, the death certificate lists a niece, Talia Bey, who is president of Cleargreen Inc., a company that organizes Castaneda seminars on "Tensegrity," a modern version of ancient shaman practices, part yoga, part ergonomic exercises. Bey was unavailable for comment. Further, the death certificate lists Castaneda as "Nev. Married," though he was married from 1960 to 1973 to Margaret Runyan Castaneda, of Charleston, W.Va., who said Castaneda once lied in court, swearing he was the father of her infant son by another man, then helped her raise the boy. The son, now 36 and living in suburban Atlanta, also claims to have a birth certificate listing Castaneda as his father. "I haven't been notified" of Castaneda's death, said Margaret Runyan Castaneda, 76, audibly upset. "I had no idea." When he wasn't writing about how to better experience this life, Castaneda was preoccupied by death. In 1995, he told the Anaheim seminar: "We are all going to face Infinity, whether we like it or not. Why do we do it when we are weakest, when we are broken, at the moment of dying? Why not when we are strong? Why not now?" But when interviewed by Time in 1973, he was more succinct about the end, directing the reporter to a favorite piece of graffiti in Los Angeles that summed up his view: "Death is the greatest kick of all. That's why they save it for last."

The Album

"Ordinarily events that change our path are impersonal affairs and yet extremely personal." Don Juan said this to Carlos Castaneda in guiding him to fulfill a shaman's task: collecting what don Juan called an album of memorable events, events of his life events that changed things for him, that illuminated his path. "The memorable events of a shaman's album are affairs that will stand the test of time," don Juan tells his student, "because they have nothing to do with him, and yet he is in the thick of them. He'll always be in the thick of them, for the duration of his life, and perhaps beyond, but not quite personally." This is Carlos Castaneda's album of memorable events, stories whose beauty will startle, move and enlighten. They bring us closer than we have ever been to Carlos Castaneda the man, and his epic struggle to make sense of-and transcend-a lifetime. "Don Juan described the total goal of the shamanistic knowledge that he handled as the preparation for facing the definitive journey: the journey that every human being has to take at the end of his life. He said that what modern man referred to vaguely as life after death was, for those shamans, a concrete region filled to capacity with the practical affairs of a different order than the practical affairs of daily life, yet bearing a similar functional practicality. To collect the memorable events in their lives was, for shamans, an entry to that concrete region, which they called the active side of infinity."

retrieved from http://www.cleargreen.com/english/publications/detail.cfm?ID=1  9/22/12

Martin Bryant Enters My Life.

Martin Bryant as he appeared to me in a dream in which I was talking with him in a quonset hut in Tasmania.  He was dressed in military issue-like 'casual' clothing and sitting on a straightback chair in front of me.  The room was empty except for the 2 of us in similar chairs.  I was talking with him about how we could navigate getting him out of the building without him being killed. I awoke after this dream to find news of the incident breaking from Tasmania.

Formal Talks

I began the Formal Talks about my album of memorable events yesterday with Bob, a psychiatrist who holds relatively true to the psychoanalytic model.  This is exciting work for me.

The Crow's Nest and the Nexus of Hell

A--Killing Fields
B--Crow's Nest Apartments

please see Crow's Nest video above and enjoy it's lively music as you get the backstory of my coastal life in League City, TX . 
This video is not posted here as an ad. 

 

 

The information below was taken as is from sites that are referenced.

The I-45 Victims

Since 1971 numerous known cases of kidnapping, sexual assault and murder have happen along Interstate 45 in Texas. Some of the victims have disappeared never to be see again, some are skeletons by the time they are discovered, very few are found somewhat in tact. Most often the victims have been dumped in fields, parks and bodies of water. Because of the lack of communication between the jurisdictions and the inconclusive links of the cases involved. Media reports scarce most likely because authorities have been rather covert concerning details. This decades long murder spree of serial killers along I-45 is as perplexing as it is frighting.

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1970's Victims

Colette Wilson - Age 13, Caucasian. She was dopped off by Band Leader at a bus stop in Alvin on June 17, 1971. She disappeared, then her nude body was found close to I-10 and highway 6. Near Addicks Reservoir in west Houston, some 35 to 40 miles from where last seen 5 months earlier. She had been killed by a gunshot to head and her band instrument was never located. The remains of Colette Willson were found within 35 yards from where the body of 19 year old Gloria Gonzales was later discovered

Brenda Jones - Age 14, brunette. Disappeared while walking to Galveston hospital, close to I-45 to visit an aunt on July 1, 1971. Her body was found the next day floating in nearby Galveston Bay, close to the Seawolf Parkway and near I-45. She had a slip crammed in her mouth and had died of a head wound.

Gloria Gonzales - Age19, brunette. She disappeared on October 28, 1971 near her home in Houston. Her body was found near Addick's Reservoir in west Houston, within 35 yards from where the body of Colette Wilson had been discovered months earlier. She died from blunt force trauma to the head.

Alison Craven - Age 12, Caucasian. Her mother returned home from after running errands for 1 hour on Novermber 9th 1971. Her daughter was missing from their apartment near I-45. Police later found partial remains in a nearby field, two hands along with bones from an arm and some teeth. On Feb 25, 1972 the rest of her skeleton was found in a Pearland field, also near I-45 and 5 to10 miles from where she was last seen.

Debbie Ackerman - Age 15, Caucasian, brunette. Ball High School students Debbie Ackerman and Maria Johnson both from Galveston, they went to shop for gifts at a Galveston mall. Both disappeared on November 11, 1971 and they were found dead two days later. 10 miles north of where they disappeared, close to I-45 and Highway 3. They were in Turner's Bayou in Texas City where fishermen saw them floating, both girls were shot twice before being dumped in the water. Their hands and feet bound and both were only partially clothed.

Maria Johnson - Age 15, Caucasian, brunette. Ball High School students Debbie Ackerman and Maria Johnson both from Galveston, they went to shop for gifts at a Galveston mall. Both disappeared on November 11, 1971 and they were found dead two days later. 10 miles north of where they disappeared, close to I-45 and Highway 3. Their bodies were in Turner's Bayou in Texas City where fishermen saw them floating, both girls were shot twice before being dumped in the water. Their hands and feet bound and both were only partially clothed.

Kimberly Pitchford - Age 16, Caucasian. Last seen at a driving school in Pasadena near I-45 on January 3, 1973. She was supposed to call home for ride but the call never came. Her strangled cadaver was found two days later in a ditch near Angleton near the 288 highway, about 30 miles south of where she was last seen. Her uncle Ray Pitchford, said a possible serial killer was known to have attended the school about the same time. However, nothing has ever come of his statement and the authorities still deem the case unsolved.

Georgia Geer - Age 14, Caucasian, brunette. Brooks Bracewell and Georgia Geer had skipped school on September 6, 1974. Both disappeared from a convenience store in Dickinson, close to I-45. Both had been beaten to death and found were found in an Alvin Swamp.

Brooks Bracewell - Age 12, Caucasian, brunette. Brooks Bracewell and Georgia Geer had skipped school on September 6, 1974. Both disappeared from a convenience store in Dickinson, close to I-45. Both had been beaten to death and found were found in an Alvin Swamp.

(Possible 1970's I-45 Link)

Karen Pretty - Age 28, Caucasian, dark hair. Robert Pretty came home in north Houston from his job on May 10, 1978. He found breakfast half eaten on the table and heard water dripping in the front bathroom. He found the bodies of his sons, Scott 7 and Mark 5 in the bathtub, he pulled them from the water. His wife was in the master bathroom, she had been strangled with a phone cord. Her hands and feet were bound with phone cord and she was submerged under water in the bathtub. She was still wearing her floral bathrobe and had not been sexually assaulted. The children were still in their pajamas and they were not sexually molested either. Scott was strangled with the bare hands of the assailant and drowned face first into the tub of water. Mark was strangled and drowned in the same fashion as his brother but he had also been beaten. The house had not been robbed and only one drawer was opened according to the police. Their car a 1978 Mercury Marquis was found in an unassigned parking spot at an apartment at 198 Goodson Drive. The case is remains unsolved and the perp(s) motive(s) unknown.

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1980's Victims

Unknown Doe - Age about 14 to17, Caucasian, brunette. Dumped on I-45 about five miles north of Huntsville on November 1, 1980. She was nude, had been strangled with pantyhose and had human bites on her body. Described as 5'4" tall, 110 pounds. A truckdriver found her body.

Tamara Ellen McCurry - Age 22, Caucasian, brunette, brown eyes. Disappeared in Galveston after seen getting into an orange or yellow van on July 1, 1982.

Heidi Villerial Fye - Age 23, Caucasian, brunette. First victim found in the "Killing Fields" case, for more information push HERE.

Sandra Ramber - Age 14, Caucasian, brunette, brown eyes. Disappeared on October 26, 1983 form her house in Santa Fe, Texas. A small town close to League City and Friendswood. The case has been determined to be foul play and she is still a missing person. Her father reported her missing after he found the doors unlocked. Biscuits were cooking in the kitchen, her new coat and her purse to becoming a model.

Jane Doe - Age ?, Caucasian, brunette. Second victim found in the "Killing Fields" case, for more information push HERE.

Laura Lynn Miller - Age 16, Caucasian, brunette. Third victim found in the "Killing Fields" case, for more information push HERE.

Headless Woman - Age ?. April, 1986 police recover a headless body from a garbage bag in a state park in Galveston, the body remains unidentified.

Shelley Kathleen Sikes - Age 19, Caucasian, brunette, brown eyes. The University of Texas student who was home for the summer, was last seen just before midnight May 24, 1986. She left her summer job at Gaido's restaurant for her Texas City home but never made it. Her car was found on I-45's northbound feeder road, just north of the Causeway. In the deep mud just north of the Santa Fe overpass, the car was blood spattered and the driver's window smashed. Her body was never recovered, but Bayview resident John Robert King and El Lago resident Gerald Peter Zwarst later were convicted of aggravated kidnapping, the most severe charge prosecutors could pursue without a body, in the case.

Laurie Lee Tremblay - Age15. One of Anthony Allen Shore's strangulation victims, killed September 26, 1986. She was last seen alive walking from her family's apartment to the bus stop, her body was later found behind a restaurant. Shore once reportedly lived in League City, the Galveston city where the infamous "Killing Fields" are located. Where 4 other victims have were discovered between 1983 and 1991.


Michelle Doherty Thomas - Age 17, Caucasian, brunette. Still missing, she was last seen leaving her Alta Loma home to meet friends on October 5, 1985.

Erica Ann Garcia - Age 14, Hispanic, brunette. June 7, 1987 she disappeared from teen club in Houston. Found behind nearby vacant building, she had been strangled to death

Suzanne Rene Richerson - Age 22, Caucasian, brunette. Worked as a night clerk at Casa Del Mar Condominiums in Galveston, Texas where she was last seen on October 7, 1988 at approximately 6:00 a.m. Another employee was sleeping in the room above Richerson's office and awoke to a scream, then a car door slam from the parking lot and another scream before the car drove away. The last people to see her were the security guards who got off duty at 6 a.m. She left behind her purse, school books and car. One of her shoes was found in the parking lot but she is still missing. On July 31, 2002, suspect Gabriel Soto age 39 died from an apparent from an overdose of drugs. Soto was never charged in this case but investigators said they believed he played a role in Richerson's disappearance.

Another Jane Doe - Age between 14-19, brunette. Discovered in a wooded area on the east side of Houston on September 19, 1989. Described as between 5'2" and 5'5" and between 110 and 130 lbs. Cause of death was a gunshot wound to the head and estimated time of death 1 to 3 months.

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1990's Victims

Janet Doe - Age ?, Caucasian, brunette. Forth victim found in the "Killing Fields" case, for more information push HERE.

Maria Del Carmen Estrada - Age 21, Hispanic, brunette.One of Anthony Allen Shore's strangulation victims, killed in April 1992. Estrada was last seen when she left her home to walk to work. Her body was found hours later in the drive through lane of a Dairy Queen restaurant. Shore once reportedly lived in League City, the Galveston city where the infamous "Killing Fields" are located. Where 4 other victims have were discovered between 1983 and 1991.

Trellis Sykes - Age 16 Abducted on way to school in Houston on May 13, 1994. Found later that same day in a field murdered.

Diana Rebollar - Age 9, brunette. One of Anthony Allen Shore's strangulation victims, killed August 7, 1994. Her mother had sent her to a near by convenience store to buy sugar. Diana's body was found behind a vacant building at 1440 North Loop West. She had been raped, beaten and strangled. Shore once reportedly lived in League City, the Galveston city where the infamous "Killing Fields" are located. Where 4 other victims have were discovered between 1983 and 1991.

Dana Sanchez - Age 16, Hispanic, brunette. One of Anthony Allen Shore's strangulation victims, killed in July 6, 1995. She was last seen talking to her boyfriend on a pay phone at West Cavalcade Street. She told him she planned to hitchhike to his home but never arrived. Her body was found in North View Park on July 14. She had been raped, beaten and strangled. Shore once reportedly lived in League City, the Galveston city where the infamous "Killing Fields" are located. Where 4 other victims have were discovered between 1983 and 1991.

Lynette Bibbs - Age 14 Disappeared with friend Tamara Fisher from teen club in Houston on February 1, 1996. Left dumped on side of rural road near Cleveland, Texas, two days later. Partially clothed and shot twice in back of head and once in the thigh.

Tamara Fisher - Age 15 Last seen with friend Lynette Bibbs at Houston teen club on February 1, 1996. Left dumped on side of rural raod near Cleveland, Texas. Fully clothed and murdered by gunshot wound to the head.

Krystal Jean Baker - Age 13, Caucasian, blonde, dark eyes. Disappeared on March 5, 1996 from Convenience Store in Texas City where she used the phone. In hopes for a ride to a friends house in Bayou Vista, which is a short distance from there. Her body was found a few hours later under the I-10 Bridge over the Trinity River in Chambers County. She had been strangled, beaten, sexually assaulted and killed by ligature strangulation. Her face was badly beaten. Closest highway from where she was last seen is I-45, Hwy 3 and Hwy 146 which goes along Bay toward where body was found miles away. Marilyn Monroe, Norma Jean Baker was Krystal's great aunt.

Teen Girl (Abducted) - Age 13. March 1996 a man who abducted her at gunpoint as she was walking home from a shopping center. She leaped out of his truck in 200 block of East Fairmont in La Porte, Texas. A police officer just happen to drive by the truck witnessed the girl falling out of the truck. The pickup truck is a late mode Ford Ranger, green with suspect as 35-45, 6 ft or 6'2", with graying black hair and beard. The truck was never seen before or after this incident.

Laura Kate Smither - Age 12, Caucasian, brunette. The aspiring ballerina disappeared April 3, 1997 while jogging near her home in Friendswood, Texas near I-45. Seventeen days later her body was found at the edge of a retention pond in Pasadena near I-45. She was nude except for one sock and a ring, her head was decapitated. A dark colored pickup was observed in same area as where last seen and composite sketch of person in truck. When Smither's body was found in the Pasadena retention pond, investigators took notice of some obvious similarities between her abduction and death and that of 9 year old Amber Hagerman in Arlington, Texas 3 months earlier. Both girls' bodies were dumped in waterways, nude except for their socks. It could not be conclusively determined if the two cases are related or not. However, sex offender William Lewis Reece is the prime suspect in Laura Smither and Jessica Cain deaths but did he do it? Information, including allegations of evidence tampering, surfaced. The autopsy report indicated that African American hairs found on the girl's body were contaminants and that did not come from the crime scene. Note the Amber Hagerman death, then also note the abduction of Sandra Sapaugh and the disappearance of Jessica Cain. Plus for more infomation click HERE.


Sandra Sapaugh (Abducted) - Dark complexion, brunette. She was fixing a flat on NASA Road 1 in Webster, across I-45 from Friendswood on May 16, 1997. When she says William Lewis Reece was the man who kidnapped her by pulling a knife on her and forced her into his truck. He ordered her to undress but she opened the passenger door and jumped out of the fast moving truck. Reece was charged with aggravated kidnapping of Sapaugh. Reece also is a suspect in the murder of Laura Smither and the disappearance of Jessica Cain.

Jessica Lee Cain - Age 17, Caucasian, brunette. Still missing after leaving friends at a Bennigan's restaurant in Webster about 2 a.m. on August 17, 1997. Two hours later her truck was found along I-45 in La Marque, there was no signs of struggle and her truck was operational. Witnesses saw her walking from her parked truck towards a red Isuzu Amigo that was stopped behind her truck.

Tina Flood - Age 23, Caucasian, blonde. November 29, 1998 a police officer pulled over Jonathan David Drew and found Flood beaten and barely alive in his front passenger seat. A waitress, she had befriended Drew at a night club. She died days later and he was convicted for her death. Drew is also suspected of several sexual assaults and it is speculated he could be responsible for the slaying of Jessica Lee Cain. A search of his former home in League City, where his parents still lived produced a vial containing several human teeth. League City is the Galveston city where the infamous "Killing Fields" are located. Where 4 other victims have were discovered between 1983 and 1991. Though his age would not match the time line of the "Killing Fields" murders but he did rape other women in the area.

Wanda May Pitts - Age 18, Caucasian, blonde. January 17, 1999 was at work the lobby desk at the Lodge Motel in Shenandoah. A job she had for about two months and she did not have a car. William Ray Mathews a drifter abducted her, took her to one of the motel rooms where he sexually assaulted her before strangling her to death. He couldn't recall where he had put her body but about a year later her remains where found off an abandon gated drive way.

Tracy Vickery (Abducted) - Caucasian, brunette. Weeks after Wanda May Pitts had vanished, Mathews attempted to abduct Vickery from the office where she sold mobile homes. The Country Time Mobile Homes just happened to located on the other side of I-45 from the Lodge Motel. He came in with a briefcase, sat down and wrote her a note. She was to do what he said because he had a gun and would kill her if she did not. He forced Vickery into his truck, then he drove off down I-45 with her but she leap from his moving truck. He tried to pull her back in by her hair but he couldn't, she got away and ran to the Gulf Cost Trades Center to save herself.

(Possible 1990's I-45 Link)

Amber Hagerman - Age 9, Caucasian, brunette, brown eyes. The Amber Alert is named after Amber Hagerman, this national program is dedicated to all children nationwide who’ve been abducted. On January 1996, she was riding her bicycle in a parking lot near her home. A neighbor heard her scream, then saw a man pull her off her bike, throw her into the front seat of his dark pickup truck and drive away at a high speed. January 17, 1996 Amber’s body was found in a drainage ditch located by apartments which are located on Green Oaks Blvd a short distance west of Highway 360 in Arlington, Texas. She had been sexually assaulted and her throat had been cut multiple times with a knife. Like in the case of Laura Smither, both girls were nude except for socks. If the two cases are related cannot be conclusively determined. Though the prime suspect in Smither's death is William Lewis Reece, a known sex offender. For more infomation click HERE.

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2000's Victims

Tot Tran Harriman - Age 57, Asian, black streaked with gray, brown eyes. Height: 4ft., 11in.Weight: 130. Disappeared July 12, 2001 from: League City, Texas. Left League City to drive to Corpus Christy, TX. but has not been seen since. She departed at approximately 5:00 AM on July 12, 2001 from her son's residence said goodbye to her son and drove away in her 1995 rose quartz Lincoln Continental, with Florida rear license plate. A Navy Seal emblem where the front plate is normally affixed. Circumstances of this case indicate that foul play is possible.

Sara Trusty - Age 23, Caucasian, blonde. Last seen in Algoa near her church riding her bicycle around 11 PM on July 12, 2002. The bike was found in foyer of church the next day but she was gone. Her body was discovered on July 28, 2002 in a dike in Texas City.

Laura Ayala - Age 13, Hispanic, brunette. Missing since March 10, 2002 when she went to a near by convenience store to pick up a news paper for a school project. Walter Alexander Sorto, Edgardo Rafael Cubas and Eduardo Navarro have not been chaged with her death. However, her DNA was discovered in a SUV owned by Cubas' father.

Maria Isabel Solis -
Age 16, Hispanic, brunette. She was last seen getting off of city bus near her school, students and nearby motel manager heard screams. Missing until a body was recovered in a wooded area near Sugar Land, Texas, on August 13, 2003. The body was discovered near a closed U.S. 59 turnaround at the Brazos River, about 20 miles southwest of Houston.Due to forensic laboratory backlogs she remained unidentified until February 9, 2005.

Teen Girl (Terrorized) - July 29, 2004 a northwest Houston teen girl stranded on a southwest Houston freeway was stranded with a flat tire on the West Loop near Interstate 10. A man she believed was a tow-truck driver offered to help, he changed her tire and then tried to sexually assault her. The girl said she managed to escape by stabbing the man in the torso and shoulder with a pocketknife. The attacker has a tall, bald, clean-shaven man with a tattoo of a spider web on his left shoulder. He was driving a faded black, older model Chevrolet pickup with "Super Tow" painted in white letters on the side.

Natasha Nicole Solidum - Age 30, Caucasian, brunette, 5-foot-5, weighing about 135 pounds. On February 23, 2006 a brother and sister were walking their dog on the beach near the Flagship Hotel in the 2400 block of Seawall Boulevard shortly after 11 a.m. A woman began shouting at them about something floating in the surf and at first one of them thought it was a mannequin. The woman’s body was clad in black sweatpants, light-blue Asics running shoes with white ankle socks, a red, hooded sweatshirt and she still had her sunglasses on. She carried no identification but her body bore a distinct mark, a tattoo of a ring of flowers around her navel. Her body had probably only been in the water for about an hour because it was still warm and rigor mortis had not set in. An autopsy showed that a single gunshot wound to the chest. Investigators combed the area near 24th Street and Seawall with special metal detectors to try to find evidence. Solidum, 30, was an elementary school teacher in the Alief Independent School District. The Flagship Hotel jets out over the surf, close to where I-45 ends on Galveston Island.  Online here  and retrieved on 9/15/12

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This map includes Calder Drive, I-45, FM 646 and 517. In the 3000 block of Calder Drive is the abandon League City Oil Field. Seemingly tucked away between houses, strip centers and other sparse businesses is this tract of land. A short distance just west of the Gulf Freeway and only a few house close by. It's 20 miles south of Houston in Galveston County off of I-45. This place is a dumping ground, known as the "Killing Field." It is where the bodies of four sexually assaulted females were discovered and all four cases remain unsolved.   The modus operandi of these four particular slayings is the work of one man. This tract of land is blemished with over grown and neglected, unnamed streets once used by workers. Also the Star Dust Trail Rides once operated by Robert Able a retired NASA engineer, he later died. He was also a suspect along with a pool of other men by the League City Police Department. Nobody has ever been charged with these murders. All four victims were laying nude on the ground, face up and under trees with their arms crossed. They were placed within a hundred yard radius apart from each other. As if the killer had premeditated to create his own necropolis. One investigator who studied the scene many times thought the killer made a footpath to view his trophies. Many policemen and FBI agents are convinced this is the personal graveyard of a nefarious serial killer. Clearly this man had to have had prior knowledge to this secluded area to plan out his carnage and elude the authorities. There are locked metal ranch gates across one part of Calder Drive and adjacent Ervin Street blocking automobile access.

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4 victims, 2 unknown, between 1983 and 1991. 23 year old Heidi Villarreal Fye was a cocktail waitress, last seen on October 10th 1983. Her remains were found after a dog carried her skull to a nearby house on April 4th 1984. She had vanished six months earlier after walking from the home of her parents to use the phone at a nearby convenience store. The medical examiner noted Fye had broken ribs and had been beaten with a club. She may have died from blunt force trauma to her head. February 2ed 1986 four boys riding dirt bikes smelled a foul odor. They located the skeletal remains of a still unidentified female and called the police. Dubbed "Jane Doe" she had died six weeks to six months before being found, she had been shot in the back. She perhaps had been shot to death by a 22 caliber weapon. Part of a bullet was found with the cadaver at the medical examiner's office. (Ruined as evidence) The autopsy also revealed healed fractures of the ribs. She is described as being about 25 years old, being between 5 feet 5 inches to 5 feet 8 inches tall. Weighing about 140 to 160 pounds, with light reddish brown shoulder length hair and had a distinct gap between her upper front teeth. She was about fifty yards from where Fye had been found. While investigating the scene the police found yet another body the same day.

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September 8th 1991, dubbed "Janet Doe" this victim still has not been identified. Investigators believe she died a month to four months before her decomposing remains were found. She was about 31 years old, had a small frame and stood between 5 feet to 5 feet 3 inches tall. Weighed about 100 to 130 pounds, had long, fine, light brown hair. She had low quality upper dentures and poorly healed fractures in two ribs. She appeared to have been beaten with a club and possibly strangled by a drapery cord found close by. Her cause of death was not determined to be strangulation but most likely the beating. She was a hundred yards from where the other victims were located. The "Killing Field" cases differ somewhat being that both Fye and Janet Doe had been beaten to death. While Miller and Jane Doe, who were found the same day, were shot to death. However, it is known that both Fye and Miller disappeared from the same convenience store at Hobbs & W Main in League City, Texas. Also the very same duplication of arrangement of the cadavers, laying on their backs nude with their arms crossed over their chest. Plus the fact that they had been dumped within a few hundred yards of each other in this abandon oil field in the 3000 block of Calder Drive. Show clearly the modus operandi or signature of one still unknown killer.

The victims were all white brunettes

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Abel was to become a suspect and a one time employee of his, Mark Stallings. After Able fired Stallings, he went to prison and confessed to some of the I-45 murders. However the police could not substantiate his claim and had no physical evidence to connect Stallings to the slayings. It's unlikely he is involved and may have only wanted to improve his jail house rep. As for Abel a search of his property turned up nothing of value nor did Tim Miller's search. He used trained dogs and heavy equipment to dig up the sector where the victims were found. Abel eventually passed a polygraph courtesy of a national news show. The FBI eliminated Able as a suspect but the League City cops still consider the deceased man a suspect. Without eyewitnesses and only scant physical evidence, the police were stuck. Many investigations have been made in the 25 acre oil field, from the FBI and the League City police to the so called "armchair detectives" who often look into real life murder mysteries. Police had a billboard up on I-45 asking for help with the case. Even a small retention pond in the oil field was drained for evidence. Only some decayed clothes and what was left of a purse were unearthed.

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On December 22, 2005 Houston's local news reported that a letter had been mailed to Tim Miller by someone claiming to be the man who killed his daughter and others. It also boasted about the I-45 deaths, said news reporters. Only a very few parts of this letter were shown. However, the letter was made up from cut out newspaper and magazine words. Much like an old style ransom note from what was shown of it. Miller went on to say he was angry after he received it and more so when he went out to the property shortly afterwards. In the spot where his daughter's body had been removed by police, he had put up a wooden cross in her memory. He saw her cross had been knocked down and broken apart. In addition he came across some pornographic CD's left there as well. Most likely the same person who sent the letter also went out to the "Killing Field" to leave a calling card for Miller to find too. Reporters say authorities are somewhat skeptical about the some of the claims this person makes in the letter. Being that the letter came only 5 months after Able died, the authorities and Miller believe it might be a trick. Is this letter from the real killer or could it be a family member or friend of Robert Abel wanted to clear the dead man's name?

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A color aerial photograph of "The Killing Field" in League City Texas A black and white satellite shot of the area

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found online here and retrieved 9/15/12 from

http://psu-sk.tripod.com/frames/i45-calder.html

 

They Seem Insane

"Shamans are not spiritual at all," don Juan said. "They are very practical beings. It is a well-known fact, however, that shamans are generally regarded as eccentric, or even insane. Perhaps that is what makes you think that they are spiritual.

"They seem insane because they are trying to explain things that cannot be adequately described with words. In the course of such futile attempts to give complete explanations that cannot be completed under any circumstances, they must touch on matters outside the understanding of the average man. So of course their explanations seem to be senseless."  Carlos Castaneda, The Active Side of Infinity.  Part 1

Sorcery: The Word You Say Carefully in a Restaurant Conversation with a Psychiatrist

My dear friend who is a powerful shaman and a psychiatrist--although he owns psychiatrist and not the former, went to lunch with me one day so I could tell him what I was so excited about having experienced out on the planes of journeying.  I can't remember what these experiences were, but I remember him listening intently and looking about a bit when I used the words sorcery and sorcerer to make sure our airspace was private.  Apparently it was because we spoke quite intensely, but I can't remember the exact conversation or topics.

"To be a sorcerer," don Juan continued, "does not mean to practice witchcraft, or to work to affect people, or to be possessed by demons. To be a sorcerer means to reach a level of awareness that makes inconceivable things available.
The term 'sorcery' is inadequate to express what sorcerers do, and so is the term 'shamanism.' The actions of sorcerers are exclusively in the realm of the abstract; the impersonal. Sorcerers struggle to reach a goal that has nothing to do with the quests of an average man. Sorcerers' aspirations are to reach infinity, and to be conscious of it."
Don Juan continued, saying that the task of sorcerers was to face infinity, and that they plunged into it daily, as a fisherman plunges into the sea. It was such an overwhelming task that sorcerers had to state their names before venturing into it. He reminded me that, in Nogales, he had stated his name before any interaction had taken place between us. He had, in this manner, asserted his individuality in front of the infinite."

The Active Side of Infinity, Castaneda, Part 1, Chapter 6

An Un-annotated Quote from Don Juan

I see this as Don Juan Matus.  It is an actor named Richard Gonzalez who is in the BBC video Tales from the Jungle.  His face is much as I remember it from visions, journeys and my one suspected encounter in the physical in 1972.

"The nagual Julian didn't care about anyone," he continued. "That's why he could help people. And he did; he gave them the shirt off his back, because he didn't give a fig about them."
"Do you mean, don Juan, that the only ones who help their fellow men are those who don't give a damn about them?" I asked, truly miffed."

This helps me understand my near-contempt for people and why I simultaneously work doggedly as a therapist with them.  Also, why I am not upset when they 'fail' in treatment.  I find the results mostly interesting and apart from me.

I don't feel drained by people generally because I don't feel they touch me in their shenanigans although it appears I am fully present (and I am) and available to deep intimacy with them.  A part of me--the part that is ME--is always separate.

My Psychiatrist and Our New Agenda

this may be young Carlos Castaneda

Reading Castaneda's Active Side of Infinity last night, and other writings by 'associates' of his and Don Juan's, I stayed up till 6 a.m.  Excited to have found this treasure trove online and free, but more excited to find there an idea that it seems I have needed:  that the sorcerer collects an "album of memorable events".  This will be my agenda now with my psychiatrist, a man I'll call Bob.  He is the man who can understand the premise, is familiar with the concepts and writings and who will help me do it. 

The events are not about me personally, but are the life changing events of my life.  They seem perfectly about my practice as a therapist mostly.  That, I think, would be where many have come from and where I can best understand that these events are not about my personal ego, but are impersonal in how they changed me. 

Here is where I am reading as I've taken a moment to write this note:
http://aquakeys.com/toltec/active-side-of-infinity-chapter_04-journey-of-power

The Ring Pass Not Light Worker and the Petty, Mischievous Demon

Still in Webster, a young woman, slight, red hair, younger than me and I was in my early 30s, was also "psychotic".  She was concerned about having passed the Ring Pass Not.  I counseled her to eat red meat.  She thought that helpful. 

She asked if I knew about the Ring Pass Not and I told her I did.  I did have memory of hearing the term and likened it to the genre of Alice Bailey White Magic readings I had been preoccupied with for some years.  I thought of it as an astrophysical location--a place that we should not dare to pass.  I couln't remember more about it, but knew it was psychically dangerous to be out there whereever it was.  I understood her dilemma in some way.  She seemed comforted to know I knew of the 'place' if it was a place.  The place seemed to me to be in outer space.  It is in spiritual space which of course is the same :)

The "Ring-Pass-Not" defines what is and is not "permitted," from the angle of your own Soul's growth, both in terms of skills as well as comprehension. That's why we're learning about different "Rings-Pass-Not," both personally and collectively.  Aquarius Papers Global Astrology

From Blatavsky Net-Thesophy http://www.blavatsky.net/newsletters/non-separateness.htm  the Ring Pass Not is discussed.  "She" is Blatavsky.  The references indicated in the text below are not notated here as yet. Her full writings, however, can be found online here

She gives the essential problem if we do not eliminate the illusion of separateness.

It is because SELF pinions man within a narrow sphere “beyond which mortal mind can never range,” that the destruction of the personal sense of separateness is indispensable to the Occultist. (Literary Jottings by HPB)

In explaining some symbolism she explains further that this error is the cause of misery and suffering.

... The “Dragon,” who seeks to devour her coming child (the Universe), is the Dragon of absolute Wisdom—that Wisdom which, recognising the non-separateness of the Universe and everything in it from the Absolute ALL, sees in it no better than the great Illusion, Mahamaya [great illusion], hence the cause of misery and suffering. (SD ii 384)

To the phrase "collective individuality" she appends this footnote expressed in poignant language. It makes clear the logical connection between the radical unity and the resulting moral imperative.

The illusion of the personality, of a separate ego, placed by our egotism in the forefront. In one word, it is necessary to assimilate all humanity, live by it, for it; and in it; in other terms, cease to be “one,” and become “all” or the total. (ibid)

In another stray comment on one of the stanzas she writes:

This refers to the Non-Separateness of all that lives ... (SD i 68)

A maxim of its own from the Transactions of the Blavatsky Lodge.

It is this sense of separateness which is the root of all evil. (Transactions)

And finally here is a stray entry in the Theosophical Glossary by Blavatsky under "The Ring Pass Not".

The circle within which are confined all those who still labour under the delusion of separateness. (Theosophical Glossary)

I did not know the Buddhists had been teaching this principle.

The latter “principle” is the Lower Self, or that, which manifesting through our organic system, acting on this plane of illusion, imagines itself the Ego Sum, and thus falls into what Buddhist philosophy brands as the “heresy of separateness.” (Psychic and Noetic Action by HPB)

Here she shows the idea to be Hindu as well.

But the Hylo-Idealists deny the Vedantic idea of non-separateness, they deny that we are but parts of the whole; (BCW Vol IX p 138, Footnotes and Comment on "Ultimate Philosophy" by HPB)

In fact, she extracts and highlights the same idea in the Bhagavadgita.

Again, "Seek shelter in the eternal alone" (ibid). "Destroy the sense of separateness," repeats Krishna under every form. "The Mind (Manas) which follows the rambling senses, makes the Soul (Buddhi) as helpless as the boat which the wind leads astray upon the waters" (Bhagavatgita II. 70). (Preface to Voice of the Silence by HPB)

She gives some insight into how this sense of separateness develops:

There is a series of vehicles becoming more and more gross, from spirit to the densest matter, so that with each step downward and outward we get more and more the sense of separateness developed in us. Yet this is illusory, for if there were a real and complete separation between any two human beings, they could not communicate with, or understand each other in any way. (BCW Vol XIII p 71)

and then there was "Bill" at about the same time.  I see him close to my face, smiling, somehow troll like...I'll get back to him in awhile....I think of him as a 'petty and mischievous demon'....He has been important to me for years.

Michael, The Exhausted and Defeated Earthbound Angel

 

from inside a seclusion room in a psychiatric hospital as it would appear
c. 1984

 

I was still a young therapist, not quite familiar with psychosis upclose, when I worked at Baywood in Webster, Tx.  It was here that a man, probably in his 30's, with wild beard and hair was in a seclusion room.  He was frantic.  Asking for assistance, demanding as I recall, a Bible as the only thing that could possibly help.  I don't know what he did or how he searched in the Bible, but I know that in the end he was laying face down, surrendered to defeat? with pages of the Bible strewn about. Perhaps finally exhausted or finally medicated?  I don't recall anyone going into the room to medicate him.  We did listen outside the door, talk among ourselves and people looked in through the little window in the door at him.  I remember being in the background watching all of this and being still, absorbing. Someone remarked that he had torn the pages out of the Bible.  His name was Michael.  I thought perhaps I was witnessing a spiritual , significantly spiritual--perhaps iconically so--battle that was more than psychosis.

Mentors and the Audacity to Claim Them

I've been talking with my clients lately about mentors, encouraging them to internalize those they admire. It's occurred to me that many people feel too diminished to claim a mentor and that they believe you have to have someone's permission to establish him/her as your mentor. My vote is that we claim them, leave them alone if this is appropriate, but learn from them and internalize them, use them for the rest of our lives.

Here is a partial list of mine and as usual I will return to fill out the list.

Vija Lusebrink

Vija is one of the founding practitioners and theorists of art therapy. I was fortunate enough to have her as 1 of my 3 teachers in graduate school (in a class of 13). She co-developed The Expressive Therapies Continuum with another teacher of mine, Sandra Kagin, in 1978.

Don Juan Matus who very humorously has been give a Facebook page for his quotable quotes!

Diane Topping

John Bradshaw

Christine Page

1986

I am remembering the Challenger Disaster. I was living and working right next door to NASA in January 1986 and helped process the emergency psych patients that avalanched our hospital in response to the event. Among them were engineers from NASA, members of astronaut's families and others who lived in the same small community.

In April 86 Jean Michel Jarre did his Rendezvous Houston concert, "a live performance... amidst the skyscrapers of downtown Houston...For a period of time, it held a place in the Guinness Book of Records as the largest outdoor "rock concert" in history... is remembered for being the concert which celebrated the astronauts of the Space Shuttle Challenger disaster...

One of Jarre's friends, astronaut Ron McNair, had been killed in the disaster. He was supposed to play the saxophone from space during the track "Last Rendez-Vous"; his substitute for the concert was Houston native Kirk Whalum"--wikipedia

performance clip on right of page

documentary

some of the performance